Dear Friends who read this blog, like so many around this globe, I am waiting to see what October 14th brings. I have been waiting for this for so many years. I have become so awakened, and more and more all the time to my small but important role in preparing for full - undeniable - open public sightings and contact.
There was a time years before, when, after my initial hypnosis session turned my world completely upside down, I lived managing a certain level of terror just to work and live and move through my life in some kind of 'normal' manner. As I investigated the material around my newly emerged memories, I found more and more corroborating stories, testimony, evidence that they were real. Indeed, I could not complete my healing process until I accepted that they were real and dealt with all the emotional fallout from them. I finally, years later, did some subsequent hypnosis sessions to uncover more that I had questions about, needing more answers. I remember sitting on my sofa for hours at a time after, in shock, pushing down rising panic at the calculated cruelty and incredible abuse I remembered.
Difficult as this process was, it was also a time of great awakening of my consciousness and that continues on to the days through which we are now passing.
I remember the times years ago I sat watching UFO documentaries on TV, knowing extraterrestrials are real, watching evidence being presented, and watching debunkers allowed to comment on it all and ridicule it back into the realm of the unreal and the ridiculous, preserving the fragile reality of those who can't or won't face the facts of what is going on all around them.
I remember not being able to even begin to deal with my own memories and my feelings about them because of this ridicule, and healing that could have happened sooner with the right support, happened much, much later. I hope I am putting an end to that by coming forward, so that those who have had experiences like mine can find the support they need to heal. But back then, in the years past, I got to the point of refusing to watch UFO programs any more, angry that a reality that I knew was real was being so denied. I said I would only watch coverage of this phenomenon once first contact was accurately announced by Dan Rather on the evening news. Till then, just leave me out of it all.
I was experiencing not only fear of emerging memories and speaking about my experiences, but deep anger and rage, and deep grief around them as well. Especially grief. I wondered how I could live with memories of such cold, calculated cruel abuse. Just to know that some human beings were capable of treating other human beings in such a way felt like a loss of innocence so profound as to be almost too much to live with… and I wondered if my earlier near-brush with suicide had sprung from the pressure of these phantom memories which my body knew, but my mind had not yet reclaimed at that time. I wondered, 'how do people survive carrying around memories like this?' The weight of the grief was overwhelming. I'm currently working with a friend to create a DVD to tell my story in full, so others who want to know it can, and so I can be complete and never have to repeat my experiences again. I have moved beyond the need to tell this over and over again.
The shift that has happened to me in the last few years has been because I did find two gifted healers to work with and they will always have my deep love and gratitude. With the pressure of the emotional turmoil lifted, I reclaimed a sense of joy in living and enjoying a wonderful community to live in, here in southwest Colorado. I turned my attention to art and other interests, like sustainability. I did my best to put my experiences behind me, keep quiet about them (except to a few friends) so as not to upset others who didn't know about such things or expose myself to disbelief and ridicule, which in a minor way, is almost re-traumatizing. But in the last two years I have found that speaking out about my experiences is a necessary - and vital - part of my final stages of healing.
So I created Durango Exopolitics, as a blog here online and as a local discussion group, in which, from my own well of experiences, spirituality and insights, I do my best to educate people about the reality of extraterrestrials, the shadow government and what they are capable of and, in spite of what has happened to me and the memories I carry, take a joyful, peaceful and hopeful view of humanity's future. Part of this future that I consider to be inevitable, is full, open public contact with spiritually evolved, benevolent extraterrestrials.
An Awakening Wanderer
Speaking now as an awakening Wanderer - an extraterrestrial soul who chose to incarnate as human - I feel strongly that I chose this life for multiple purposes for my soul's growth. I've been associated with this planet for eons as time passes here, memories of coming here from Lyra and settling on Lemuria to seed and colonize this planet strong within me. During my earthwalk here, first as a Lyran, then incarnating as human to experience more fully this world and its peoples' evolution, I picked up karma, which choosing this particular present life, with all its challenges, has helped to clear for the coming ascension, or humanity's first-stage enlightenment that will help as many as possible move into another energetic octave of spiritual evolution and experience.
The difficulties of this life have spurred an equally wondrous awakening to consciousness, to who I truly am. My mission here is two-fold: to educate to the best of my ability about extraterrestrials and the shadow government from my unique experience and spiritual perspectives, and as a field-worker liaison with the Star Nations of the Light to share my human experiences and insights with my Star community so they can understand what it's like for us who live on Earth and factor in these experiences as they determine how best to intervene in and set humanity back on course for the coming Shift or portal of 2012, that we are even now in the great wave of. I am as human as any of you, and yet also (and I'm one of millions) a soul who came here long ago as we measure time here, to learn/teach and assist.
There were many lifetimes when I forgot my purpose here in the Great Forgetting that happens to souls who incarnate here. Remembering our purpose and why we came is extremely challenging, and yet, as with other emerging feelings/memories that surface, I smile to myself when I think I must have most enthusiastically volunteered to come, excited at such opportunities for my soul's growth that I'd encounter here. When I go back among my Star community for good, the passage of time there will seem like I was on an extended pilgrimage of several months to a couple of years, though here on Earth I'll soon celebrate my 54th birthday. Don't ask me how I know this. It just seems to emerge as truth from within.
So, as I contemplate October 14th, first undeniable sightings/contact with the kind of extraterrestrial beings we need so very much to come to know and have contact with, for me it's personal. It's the complete joy of two realities I belong to coming together at last. It's weeping tears of joy and relief to know that the kinds of cruelties and abuses I experienced will never have to happen to anyone here again. It's having the insight that, if NESARA is truly real and is implemented, it will be a bridge to a true moneyless society where people create abundance for all and work to their individual and common good and the good of all life here and Gaia herself. It's knowing that all people will know all the truth of what has transpired here at last - no more denial - and that truth will set them free, and that freedom will then become responsible co-creativity of our collective, conscious world from our hearts in loving cooperation with each other and the living conscious Universe. It's knowing that it is a beginning rich with promise, truly a New Dawn for humanity and this world.
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